I don't know if you have ever had people in your life you've looked up to just because their lives seemed perfect or beautiful somehow, but I do. The first of these I think was my cousin J. He grew up around the corner from me and is about three years older than me. He and his brother Jn. were childhood playmates to me and my sister. By high school age, however, our paths diverged slightly and he'd become popular. He was handsome, outgoing, a decent trumpeter, and a varsity soccer player. Not many people at our high school knew that we were cousins at first, so more than once I remember hearing "oh J., he's SUCH a FOX".
J. met and married K. some years later, and had two children. I was a groomsman in their wedding. and our lives began to re-connect a little more shortly after that. They have a beautiful marriage, two (or it might be three... they're expecting another child any moment now) beautiful children, and from what I've heard, a beautiful house. They're high energy people, always moving from here to there... and always unafraid to pay for the best... in dining, clothes, what-have-you.
J. is a lot more human to me now that he was in high school... because I've grown much more confident in myself. I see now that his life is not different from mine in many ways. I also see that his choices are not mine, and I feel that we can interact well as adults and as equals.
One way that I still look up to J. and K. though is their wedding. Their reception was held at a renowned hotel. The rehearsal dinner was in an upstairs banquet room of a restaurant and was exquisite. They looked comfortable an elegant through it all. J. still had musician friends in his wedding party who were professionals... I remember hearing so much good music that night. I remember so many good things about that night, and I somehow hope that my wedding can emulate that in some fashion.
All of this was driven home to me yesterday when Fiancee S. showed me a program and keepsake book from her friend I.'s wedding to her husband G. I. and G. are a beautiful couple in the same way that J. and K. are, I think. Certainly as I looked at the pictures of the two of them together, not only could you see how handsome and beautiful they were as individuals, but, you could also see how much they love each other. S. attended I. and G.'s wedding, and she thinks of it in the same way I think of J. and K.'s. I. and G. also have an adorable son. In short, they seem to be another of those beautiful couples that seem worthy of admiration and don't seem to tread the earth precisely in the same way S. and I do.
I find myself hoping. I hope that amidst all the day to day stuff that comes with living, that S. and I have something together that shows as strongly as in other couples. I hope that our wedding will bring as much joy and be as memorable for those who attend as the weddings we admire. I guess I hope for a little magic... magic like J. and K. and I. and G. seem to have.
on 2003-09-21 at 8:55 a.m.
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