We closed on the house on Friday. Mrs. Geek and I are now officially landowners. Everyone is asking "Are you thrilled?" as if being thrilled is a clause in the sale contract.
Yes, I am happy about the idea of owning a home... and I am happy about the idea of owning this particular home. Yet, this house is a voyage into the unknown, out of my comfort zone. With the question of housing settled, the question of children will be raised soon. That means the possibility for great joy and love if all goes well... and something we both want... but it also means the high cost of childcare. That will stretch our budget to the limit, and while that is only money... I don't like the person those stresses might cause me to become.
So, am I thrilled?
I am uncertain. I've had a pretty comfortable life these last few years, and that chapter is closing. Certain parts of the immediate future are opaque to me. I am not someone who plans his life five years into the future, with an exact schedule... or even much detail. Yet, I do like having a some idea of where my feet will be landing before making the next jump. The ground looks far away, and the features somewhat out of focus.
If not being sure about whether you will like who and where you are a year from now is being thrilled, yes, I'm thrilled to death.
on 2007-09-16 at 9:49 p.m.
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